Kelly Clarkson opens up about the unhealthy choices she made amid her divorce from Brandon Blackstock. The couple was married for seven years after Clarkson filed for divorce in June 2020. The former couple even shares two kids River, 9, and Remington, 7. Clarkson recently speaking to Zane Lowe on Apple Music 1, admitted the “unhealthy habits” she adopted during her divorce procedure.
Kelly Clarkson said she did not handle her divorce well
The 41-year-old told the host, “I don’t know how people get through anything like that because I’m not going to say I did it gracefully. Behind closed doors by myself, it was not … Just to be brutally honest, I did not handle it well.”
“I had many sessions with just my friends of… I couldn’t even speak. I was crying so hard… even before separating,” the singer continued. “There were just a lot of now unhealthy habits you recognize or habits that you recognize that you didn’t see before. Hindsight is a lot easier.”
However, they tried to make efforts to “to make it work.” But she “knew in my heart it just wasn’t going to.”
“I think when you finally go, ‘I can’t fix this. I can’t,’ there’s no amount of hope that will, or trying or whatever. It actually is freeing,” Clarkson said. “It’s incredibly sad. It’s a dark place, and fetal position on the floor crying. There’s so much loss with that and I’d never experienced grief like that, but I also think it’s very freeing.”
“Then we have two little kids watching us,” the mother of two added. “And you don’t want to set that example for, this is what they’re going to set the bar for. I’m like, I don’t want my kids to be in this relationship. I want them to aim higher.”
Moreover, she said how therapy helped them, “It’s very helpful to have a trained professional that knows how to navigate you through rough seas. And it’s a rollercoaster.”
“No matter what I said to my friends, no one got… it being so public, misinformation, what things that were right, and then people talk to you about, and you want to scream at the top of your lungs,” the singer said. “No one knows that, and I don’t know theirs. Whatever theirs is, you can’t experience full-on what someone else is experiencing. And it’s very isolating.”
“You feel like everything you’re going to mess up your children. You’re going to mess up your whole life. Everything is so huge,” Clarkson said. “And now three years later, even from separation, it’s like, you know what? I was like, ‘Yes, it is important. And yes, it was what it was. But at the end of the day, we’re all fine. We’re doing fine. Everybody’s finding their own lane and we’re figuring it out and it’s going to be fine.'”
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