Lily Collins is an open book right now. The Emily In Paris actress shared the darkest phase of being emotionally abused in her past relationship. On the February 6 episode of the We Can Do Hard Things with Glennon Doyle podcast the actress was revealed to be in a toxic relationship in her early 20s.
Lily Collins had to make herself small to feel super safe in her past relationship
On the February 6 episode of the We Can Do Hard Things with Glennon Doyle podcast the actress recalled her dark past. The 33-year-old said, “My romantic, toxic relationship was a lot of verbal and emotional abuse and being made to feel very small. I became quite silent and comfortable in silence and feeling like I had to make myself small to feel super safe.”
The Love Rosie alum is even called “Little Lily” and “whore” by her ex. Moreover, she added, “My skin was breaking out. I was having these panic attacks. and I had kidney infections. All of these weird physical manifestations. but I didn’t, at that time of my life. put the two and two together as your body is telling you. ‘This is not something you’re supposed to be in.'”
Therefore, Lily is still trigged today in spite of being in a healthy relationship. She said, “Even if I’m in the most healthy relationship. there can be a moment that happens throughout the day where history comes back like that. Your gut reacts, your heart drops and all of the sudden you’re taken back to that moment where they said that thing to you 10 years ago but you’re not in that situation now.”
Collins revealed the role of her husband in making her move forward
However, the actress is now happily married to Charlie McDowell since 2021. Moreover, she referred to how her husband has an important role in making her move forward. She said, “I’ve had these moments in the past but never felt like I was in a safe enough space to show it in the moment or the person wasn’t as aware or knew me well enough to see that look and know somethings happened. When I’m in one of those moments, it is so clear to Charlie, who can read me like a book, and he calls it out in a moment. This is what healthy conversation and healthy communication can feel like. When someone can lovingly bring to your attention or call out something that doesn’t feel right or that they want to help you with, it may feel uncomfortable but it’s for the best.”